. . . And a Chat about Discouragement
Recently I grappled with more questions when my publisher’s publicist e-mailed me. Due to circumstances beyond his control, the release of The Tenth Plague has been moved from the end of this September to January 15, 2013.
Pardon Me While I Vent
I could be very discouraged by this news. Why? The process of getting this second novel to any semblance of the printed page for readers has been one of the most frustrating and time-consuming trials in recent memory. I won’t bore you with the details.
Suffice it to say, I’ve faced seemingly endless delays, constant rejection, false hopes, discouragement, lack of affirmation, the death of my father, financial/work pressures, and even a switch of publishers.
I could easily point fingers (“Satan must be attacking me” or “that publisher must be out of his mind”), but I’m not going to. I’ve decided not to be discouraged. Because ultimately, if God is in control of My life (and He is), then He’s also in control of my writing and its timeline. He also promises that all things will work together for my good.
I have a melancholy personality and can easily get down in the dumps. So let’s shed the negativity and switch this around to a positive.
So what “good” can I take away from the trying experience of getting this book to publication?
Trials must be God’s good gifts. Otherwise the novel would have been published two years ago. But if life were only that easy, I may not have learned so many lessons:
To be patient
To rest in God’s sovereign (and best) plan for my life
To stop looking at the clock and start resting in Him
To stop envying others and their success
To stop comparing myself to others and their success and pace
To see myself as a wretch who must continually shrug off negativity and turn my eyes to Christ
To stop measuring my worth based on my performance (my worth is in Jesus Christ)
To realize publishing novels isn’t all about me but about God and what He wants to do
To see that publishing novels is not the end-all (there are more important things in life)
To remind myself that anything I do well is because God has empowered me to do it (therefore, He gets all the praise for any success)
To accept that I may never publish another novel and that I need to be okay with that
To not blame others when ultimately God is in control, even of the rejection and disappointments
To make people I love a higher priority
Ready for more good news?
The Lord willing, unless Jesus raptures His church before January, the novel is still being published. That hasn’t changed.
The timeline is only what has changed. And only by four short months.
And God allowed me to cowrite a memoir, which is being published this fall by DayOne (hopefully I’ll have details about that book soon). Praise Him!
So, as usual, I tend to make a mountain out of a mole hill. I have every reason to rejoice. God accomplishes His will, and I become a more mature author. And really, readers are willing to wait a little while longer than we think they will. If not, they may learn something about patience too.
So this trial is a win-win for everyone.
I’ve been brutally honest about my struggles to make a point. I’m human. I get discouraged like you do. I struggle with my attitude and need a regular wake-up call to keep things in the right perspective.
What about you? Are you going through a major life trial that has sapped you of your joy in the Lord? Here are some lyrics someone sent me a while back that may help:
There’s not a victory without a fight
There’s not a sunrise without a night
There’s not a purchase without a cost
There’s not a crown without a cross
- Searching for Shirley MacLaine
- I Miss You, Dad